Most people are scared of being alone. You know, relationship wise. Not that I’m not one of them, yet I put myself above average. Because I never completely let in the comfort of having made-it. I don’t assume utopia just by the glimpse of its possibility. In fact, it’s when I’m the most euphoric — and very much so without the stimulants — that I try to hold myself back. Scared I am of the deadly addiction.
Never enjoy anything too much for it might be lost eventually. Can it be really lost though? Well, I definitely can’t be certain it can’t!
It’s the subtle pleasures that cripple you the most. Stimulants are innocent. At least you’re a slave to the non-living. You’d never be deprived as long as its there.
Of course it could kill you one day! And so will the time.